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Saturday, May 14, 2005

Sat, 14 May 2005 06:02:23 GMT

Wow it has been a while since I have posted here....not much going on really.
Dh is out of school finally....till Sept. He will be working 2 jobs for the summer. I was sorta of thinking about getting a part time job to get out of the house a little and the extra cash would be nice...but honestly the thought scares me to death. It has been over 6 years since I have worked. Not to mention I have no idea what I would do. A coffee shop could be fun....or Penzy's is opening a store on 82nd somewhere I think....that could be interesting too.....The other issue I guess is that J still nurses all the time...I don't think she would like me being gone...not that it would be a bunch of hours....
My birthday came and went...nothing exciting. Dh was sick. Mom made dinner and dessert...was good. Our anniversary is in a abouat 2 weeks...dh wants to do something special....I am not holding my breath..we tend to disagree on what that is and well.....not more then 5 hours away from the kids is a must..for those watching them and for my sanity. J, of course, will be getting antzy by then. We may just do dinner and a movie..been a long time since we have done that. My AP neighbor's (2 doors down) dh told me tonight that they would be up for watching the kids which was really cute. J just wanders over there and walks right into their house...if the door is open...very funny.

Friday, April 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 05:41:29 GMT

Here is my new baby.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 15:44:52 GMT

YEAH!!!! I got my piano. I will have to take a picture and post it. I am so excited. Now I want new furniture....lol We also bought the kids a trampoline. They are enjoying it. We need to sit down and write up rules. I don't want to be responsible for the neighbor kids. I think there parents will have to be present.
I have my last Student Wives Ministry meeting tonight. My parents are going to watch the kids so Pat can study and I can go.
I went in on Monday and applyed for food stamps and medical for the kids. I got the medical cards yesterday. That was fast. I haven't heard a thing yet on the food stuff. I am hoping it will be enough just so we can buy some better food..not just yucky stuff.
Which leads me into dieting....I need to start and quit thinking about it. I got out my Windsor Pilates yesterday and she has a 10 day food plan..maybe I will just follow that, while doing the pilates. The hard part is finding the time to do the dvd. I have to watch it on my puter too which is weird..lol
The last two days here were gorgeous..today is cloudly again....oh spring. I need to get busy and get my plants resoiled and planted and get my seeds into the soil. The kids are dying to do a garden.
Lorna just informed me taht Josie is downstairs naked..she took off her pj's (with help I am sure) and then stripped off her diaper...her knew skill...gotta run.

Monday, April 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 19:27:42 GMT

Oh my goodness...I am sitting here with tears running down my face...a dear friend's son was just diagnosed with leukemia....I am so heartbroken. Prayer for my dear sister in Christ and friend.

Monday, April 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 19:24:16 GMT

Ok so it has now be determined that I can't post here often..it just isn't possible...lol

Things have been good. The kids are finally getting over their cold...and I have caught something else..grrr...
Dh is in the final 4 weeks of school and things are tense...I can't wait till summer break...this he can relax a little bit.
We are currently looking for a piano and we just bought the kids a trampoline. I had an appointment with DHS this morning for FS and we shall see how that helps out. I think dh's summer will probably through that all off but we shall see. God can provide in many different avenues. My dad watched the kids this morning while I was gone. Dh was at school.
J is throwing a fit because I won't let her play with my printer/fax machine...grrr...Silly girl
Speaking of she broke out again on her butt as well as her leg..I have no idea what the leg thing is all about..she ate somethign she wasn't supposed to on Fri that made her diaper area break out..grr.I wish I could figure it all out.
Oh last night was the first night she has slept more then 4 hours at a time...she fell asleep about 11 or so and didn't wake till 5:30...I was so excited..I got up fed her and put her back in her crib...she didn't wake up again till 9 or so...The one morning I have to get up early..figures..at least she let me sleep last night.
L was up just before 9 and T didn't get up till 10. Papa didn't have too busy of a time.
I made a kefir shake for lunch...it is tangy today...hope it doesn't upset my stomach. it is definitley fermented..lol I need to go clean the fridge..someone turned it all the way off Sat night..I discovered it yesterday morning.

I need to lose weight..I posted pics of before and now in the WM forum to try and motivate myself...lol I think I scared eveyone off. dh wants to work out with me..now if we can just get things scheduled....a find hte motivation.....

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 05:03:25 GMT

Wow....been a while since I posted.

Well AF showed up. 40 days after I started the last one. It was rather heavy this time...to be expected I guess....been months...lol The last one was really light.

I am in a much better frame of mind now...for some reason..balanced the hormones or something.

Feeling really detached from dh this week though and I don't like it. Josie has been sick all week and she and I have been on the couch all week so dh can sleep. I think also that he is stressed and school is about out. So I can expect this till it is over. Makes my thoughts and imagination go up. It is when he is stressed that he stumbles or caves or whatever you call it.

The other two kids have the cold now. Dh is gone this weekend with the men at the church for a men's retreat.....I don't like having him gone. It is weird. I miss him already. L freaked out when I told her daddy was going to be gone all weekend. She didn't like him being gone all summer last year...and she remembers it all too well.

Tristan broke his glasses today...need to order him some new ones. I was looking for a mercury free dentist today too and the only one I can find is about 45-1hr away. I should check in Vancouver maybe. the other issue is money....grr.I hate it. Shouldn't have to sell blood to get the best care available.

It is 10:52 here...Josie is still wide awake. Silly girl. She is feeling better. She is teething on top of having a cold. I wish those stinken teeth would just come through.

Oh yeah...watched Joan of Arcadia tonight....why can't she and her guy get back together...he was wrong but they are so cute together....lol Watched Third watch right after it...almost had me in tears too..lol Can tell I am on my cycle.

DH told the kids I would do something special with them tomorrow....now i have to figure something out. maybe we will do eggs since we haven't done that yet. I did go rent movies. They picked out mickie mouse christmas. I picked two I didn't think dh woudl want to watch..lol

I need to go on a diet. I hate feeling fat and looking at clothes I can never wear. It is depressing but I seem to be to lazy to do anything about it. Why is it that I can have all these grand plans write it out and then do nothing about it...it is like writing it out a good positive thing..but what is the point if I never get it done.
My house is a mess...I hate it that way but cna't seem to get it clean. I don't seem to be capable of teaching the kids how to help me keep it clean. I just yell at them...sigh..got to change that. It doesn't do a d*mn thing...but tick me off. I had no idea how many of my mother's traits I would carry over or how hard they would be to break. I am not much of a teacher..I have no clue how I am going to homeschool my kids. If we could afford it. I might and that is a big might, consider montessori school....my sis would have to work there...lol I don't trust many people with my kids. They are too precious to me. I am just now realizing some things of my childhood..I aime to protect my kids as much as possible...that brings up another point....TV it has to go. it isn't good for any of us. I see that now. We waste to much time. We get lazy. The kids don't get along. We don't read nearly as much and we substitute watching tv together as spending time with one another. need I go on...not to mention I can watch all kinds of shows that you have to watch every week.....sigh...can you say addiction....which brings up coffee...I need to cut out my coffee or at least cut back. I drink way too much. I sure love the stuff though.

Friday, April 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 16:28:41 GMT

Yesterday we went to the cheese factory and the coast with my parents. It was a nice day. The kids had fun and everyone slept pretty good last night too, I think..hehe... Josie ended up in bed with us at some point...she kept sticking her feet in our backs..that wasn't very nice...lol The cheese factory was cool. I was hoping they would show us more how they actually make the cheese but that was on video and hard to follow in a crowd. We did get to see how they cut the blocks up and then sent them down to get packaged and sealed. That part was really cool. The plant was spotless too which was good to see..hehe
After that we went to the coast. It was cold and Josie was sleeping in the car so I didn't stay outside too long....I left Papa on the beach to play with them. They loved it and were out there for geeze...at least 45 mins probably. Mom stayed in the car with the baby. Then we drove back and had dinner and came home. Dh was in school when we left so he got to have the afternoon to himself. my turn my turn.
It is raining again today. Makes it really hard to get motivated. I need to scrub the tub. T puked in it last night...gross. I need to do laundry too so Pat has clean clothes to wear to work tonight.
Still waiting on a package from Marcella in the mail...maybe today....lol

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 05:21:36 GMT

Well today wasn't much better. I got up and went to the dentist....I have 15 caveties....$1200 worth of work..I am so depressed. It is my own fault..I don't brush often enough...my poor sis brushes 3 times a day though and she has more then me...I am lucky, I guess.
Dh and were not really friendly all day today...carried over from yesterday maybe or maybe all new...we haven't discussed it yet.
I had to tell the dentist about possibly being pregnant and that has been on my mind all day too.....I haven't told dh yet. I hope I am not. I would like another but not right now.
We had college group at our house tonight..I got home from the dentist picked up the girls went back to the grocery store and then came home and busted my butt to get the house clean and food prepared. DH at one point told me I was being b*tchy. I thought about just throwing something at him and leaving.
I don't know what is wrong right now....I hate the closing in on semesters..everyone gets tense. Oh well...things will be better tomorrow....I hope. We have our Marriage Enrichment class in the morning...We haven't done anything for it. I am not in the mood to do anything for it..grrr
On top of that..I feel old. My knees are starting to bother me, my right index finger is really bothering me..arthiritus or carpel tunel maybe...it feels swollen too...like when I am 9 months preg swollen....I feel fat too. It doesn't normally bother me but I think I have put on weight and I am not liking it. Dh wants me to work out and diet with him. It is the one thing that we might maybe could have in common....
We have been trying to buy an eliptical but thus far haven't had any luck in our price range. That is depressing. I really want one. I should just get busy and do my pilates.
Well I better get off here and go clean up the kitchen...or maybe just go to bed. I am so tired.....

Monday, March 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 02:14:09 GMT

Oh I feel crappy today. Got up late, didn't plan well..missed brunch at church and then was bored during service. It was kind of convicting but not sure what to do about it. I confessed some things but don't feel any better and not sure how to change them. Then after lunch we went to return movies and pick out a few more...dh got huffy at me..I guess he thought we were only going to get kids' movies. I didn't realize that. ohwell...nothing to get huffy about....
Once we got home we finished moving the upstairs around. I like it better but dh checked email and then made a comment that he disliked GCM almost as much as TV......grrr....I am so irritated with that comment. He knows nothing about GCM other then the titles of the threads that come through the email box. I think perhaps he thinks I spend too much time on here. He also would prefer me to read my bible. I don't do that often enough. I have a hard time finding the time. It is so much easier to read things online for some reason....the kids can interupt and it isn't as much of a problem...ah well...things to think about I guess. I need to go cook dinner.

Monday, March 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 01:53:27 GMT

Well still trying to get this figured out...